A Place where my Dreaming can have some Space. Mondo Beyondo is a course in Dreaming big and I am giving it a second go round. Follow along with the Exploration here.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

SARK :: Who Knew?

I spent time this morning listening to the SARK interview, really listening this time. Last class, I recall putting it on and maybe tuning it out a bit, something was not reaching me that time around. I am not familiar with SARK, have yet to seek out her stuff so she was uncharted territory for me. I heard that her stuff is in the self help aisle and then it was something about her voice, her ebullience bordering on annoying. I recalled those feelings when I started the audio interview this morning but then I made myself stop. I was alone with headphones in a quiet place internally and I told myself that I needed to stop listening with that filter. The one that says I already heard this, there is nothing new here, I can't be helped by this woman. And once I did that I began to hear what it was that I needed to hear.

365 :: 144

It's funny like that, I am realizing. The filters I use can do so many things; protect, dilute, alter the words. But once I acknowledge the way the the filter acts, which is actually just another way of saying how I am acting, it allows the message to come through.

Do you know what I heard in that 30 minutes? The exact right thing. That everything and every dream has DIVINE TIMING.

Smoke Tree

And that was the message I needed. She said that dreams do not die, do not have timelines, cannot be quelled or buried or lost once they are dreamed. The fact that I did Mondo and did a list last year and did that work and it is sitting back there in old blogs posts was totally FREAKing me out. I was feeling afraid of the list, of the dreams that I set, as if they were reminders of all that I had not done in the last year. But I listened this morning and heard that there is no need to panic, no need to get breathless and worry that I am doing/dreaming it all wrong.

That felt good. Letting it go. Not the dreams, oh no, but the idea that there is some arbitrary timeline during which it must occur. I feel new courage and belief welling up, albeit, a little slowly but coming.


I am so glad I listened this morning, really listened. I hope if you listened too the message you needed came to you.

And after I finished listening I did a quick google search and came back with this SARK image. It was like a little note from the Universe as I drove home to my kids. I loved reading through this image and hope you do too.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

At the Heart :: Core Values

Last year when I embarked on my Mondo journey, I had very little idea what I was getting into. This time around I feel the format and I am trying to remember that it is good to be open to each lesson, each small preparation because they led to a pretty big change in my life.


This lesson askes us to identify core values, two people we admire and why. I posted about two folks last year here. And I have to say not much has changed since last year, which is good because these are core values, people. But then, in reflection I realize so much has changed in the last year and a half.

When I published that post I had yet to meet Kate, she was a person on screen but not in person. I think we all understand what that means these days; some emails exchanged, comments here and there, @ on twitter as a way to communicate and make contact. But not yet real. And I did meet Kate and found that she is as lovely as I thought her to be. And we still communicate via the occasional contact online, mainly because she lives half a world away. But the thing I love about asking the Universe in my Mondo list for a meet up was granted in the oddest of ways. NYC and a few minutes to laugh about shirts; tiny, big and borrowed. When you ask the Universe, it answers in its own way.

And my husband. He is still my husband. And yet, a different version of that man that I have known for so long. He has gorwn and shifted out of what he was and is on his road to becoming what he wants to be. He makes furniture from scrap and manages a household when I am away and gains confidence in himself in ways that I never anticipated. And he turns 34 tomorrow ... so many years have passed since I met him at 17 but he will always embody my core values because he always has.

I didn't work my way through the exercise this time because I feel that these values did not shift ... much. But I think I know that I can state them in a clear way this time around.
365 :: 135

I think these people came to mind for a few reasons. They exist outside of the box, outside of a faith system, a school system, the system. They thrive on reflection about themselves, and are very good at realizing that. Kate does it very publicly while my husband does it very privately. They just might not give a damn about what others think (at least, not all the time). Shirking responsibility is not an option.

From my post later year.
And my revised conclusion

I cherish respect for life and the way we each walk through it, freedom to allow ourselves do it the way we will and allow others their way, awareness that we are part of a whole and not always right, self reflection becuse the only way to self is when you know how to see self and movement becuse when you stop moving you are, well, dead.