A Place where my Dreaming can have some Space. Mondo Beyondo is a course in Dreaming big and I am giving it a second go round. Follow along with the Exploration here.


Sunday, January 24, 2010

8 :: Making an Altar

I read this Eighth Lesson in a bit of a funk. One child taken ill, parents that act as right hand(s) preparing to leave town for some time, small obligations starting to overwhelm in the ways that they do. Fatigue setting in after my initial rambuctious embrace of all the lessons previous.

I felt a small panic as to where to put this so called altar. Sure I cleared some space, but admittedly, most of it has succumbed to the chaos that comes with small children and less than vigilant parents. I wanted something special, a place where it might not be totally taken over in the week to come.

This weekend was unexpectedly difficult. Owen has some terrible upset in his system causing him to barf all solids and is battling low grade fevers. I spent some time with a Mama of a friend, a woman I have known since my teen years who is actively dying of Stage IV cancer. These all seemed to be drawing me further from any ability to commit to this time and space lesson.

Then this afternoon I found a moment. Just to gather. Off to my parents' room vacated for the week.
Mondo Beyondo :: My Altar

Lovely sunshine shining, small table open, precious bits gathered. It became itself in a minute's time...well, a few minutes and a few trips back and forth. And I was so excited because it is out of the reach of the boys.
Mondo Beyondo :: My Altar

But then something happened. Mace went on a solo trip with Daddy and I had sick Owen. I wanted to snap a few pictures, and he was feeling up to being upright...off we went to the back room on a little trip.
Mondo Beyondo :: My Altar

He was delighted by it immediately, drawn to it. He wanted to touch it, play with the small green 'gems', softly singing a song as he rearranged.

Mondo Beyondo :: My Altar
Mondo Beyondo :: My Altar
This little boy who was pissing out both ends all weekend, finally happy, finally singing again.
Mondo Beyondo :: My Altar

And me, realizing that my altar was receiving the blessing it needed.
Mondo Beyondo :: My Altar

Because my children are woven into the fabric of my being, intrinsic to my days and life, and such a part of my dream. And he took part of it, of course, but left the rest gently rearranged and ready to accept.
Mondo Beyondo :: My Altar

Not a bad way to end a challenging weekend, start a new challenging week.

I find it important to note that Mason may not be pictured but I chose my favorite vessel with his name imprinted on it as my "bowl". Gotta' keep it even, you know.

Mondo Beyondo :: My Altar

5 comments:

  1. I love it how your little man was such a key part of the evolution of your altar... as he (and his brother, and their Daddy) will be such a vital part of the evolution of your dreams.
    Perfect!
    You are such a wise, generous mama. I have much to learn from you.

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  2. You are making me want to get a serious camera. I love your pictures and the perfect moments you always seem to catch.

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  3. Glad he is feeling better! And YAY for the alter. I'm glad it's not blessed and whole. :)

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  5. Hi there :)
    I have no idea why it's taken me so long to look at your blog. Love the little green gems but especially the fabric you used. It's like little bubbles of dreams all tied together to make one whole. It's inspiring the way your family is part of your altar and your dreams. :)

    (Sigh... wrong account initially)

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